Nothing In The Cup

x_berts_bees_x @ 2007-08-21T08:51:00

2007-08-21T15:02:48Z

I haven't updated in a week short of two months....

Davey hasn't yelled at me once, either. Weird.

Hey Davey. If I dissapeared for like. Six months without word or warning. Would you still keep me around? I mean. I've straight up been gone for like. three months once. and all I had was an inbox full of nudges. plz explain.

In other news. College is really fucking boring. How do you people do this without blowing your brains out? Honestly.

I have homework to do.

[insert grumbling here.]

x_berts_bees_x @ 2007-03-20T17:47:00

2007-03-20T22:54:27Z

Go check out my new shit. It's amazing.

Do it or me and Quinn will kick your ass.

(I totally stole the stream from David.)

x_berts_bees_x @ 2007-03-13T20:50:00

2007-03-14T01:52:41Z

I'nm durnk.'m taknig zaxcckly to the opera.

It's fgonna be fun whein I'm sober;.
I don;t know why i'm updating.

Kabi.

x_berts_bees_x @ 2007-03-07T20:35:00

2007-03-08T02:37:26Z

I miss my lemons.

I had a stange dream the other night that I was Norman Bates's mother. It was... interesting..

Mostly it was the after effect of watching too many psycho movies and being up almost 24 hours.

Uhm.

That's pretty much it.

I'm gonna go find davey and ask him about the meeting thinggg..

x_berts_bees_x @ 2007-01-10T15:25:00

2007-01-10T21:33:13Z

I want to call you right now. But. I can't right now. Later I will.

I do want to go see you over the summer. Maybe I'll say fuck school and just stay with you. But that would make me a hypocrite becuase I talk bad about my mother for doing the same thing.

I don't know what I want.

I do know that I want you.

Bert.

1. Ernie's homosexual lover.

2.When having anal sex, pulling out your dick and smearing shit between the girls/guys eye brows leaving a unibrow. Like Bert & Ernie.

3.A random dude who remains nameless to you, usually at a party or other gathering.

4.Term used for code to discribe females.

5.Multiple Usage: Term used for misfortune, badluck, substandardness.

6. To utilize inappropriate materials and methods to repair a damaged object.

7.A code name used when talking about your boss in public. This protects you from the unlikely event that the person at the next table is the boss' next door neighbour, brother, in-law or tennis partner.

8.n. skateboard or surfing trick where rider makes a quick 180 degree heelside turn using their front hand as an anchor on a wave or a banked piece of pavement while grabbing the toeside edge of board with the free hand.

9.an idiot, moron, jackass, etc.

x_berts_bees_x @ 2006-10-19T14:05:00

2006-10-19T19:14:51Z

I'm back at Ceaser's. Where I usually go.

I plan on losing half a million this time.

My dearest Jepha. Come join me? I haven't talked to you in a few days. But. I got my phone back? Same number. It's a long story. But. Whenever you see this? Call me and I'll tell you how everything went.

I took my test yesterday. Now I'm not sure what's worse. The days leading up to the test. Or waiting for the results. Two to Four weeks. That's how long they said it would take.

I don't know why I started listening to this song. But I do miss you. like crazy.

A movie made me cry this morning. I feel resigned. What happened to me? I used to be all. Insane and macho. and now movies are making me cry.

My bed stopped smelling like you three weeks ago. But I still remember your smell.

in some sick twisted way. I'm glad we didn't get to say goodbye. I don't know if I could've done it. i'm doing the rambling thing again.

I need more caffine.

x_berts_bees_x @ 2006-06-16T18:44:00

2006-06-16T23:45:56Z

I thi nk. My nut sac like. Exploded. I swear. It did.

Jeph should come back.

everything blows.

x_berts_bees_x @ 2006-03-24T13:35:00

2006-03-24T19:38:24Z

I AM NOT A DRUG DEALER.
I AM NOT A DRUG DEALER.
I AM NOT A DRUG DEALER.
I AM NOT A DRUG DEALER.
I AM NOT A DRUG DEALER.
I AM NOT A DRUG DEALER.
I AM NOT A DRUG DEALER.
I AM NOT A DRUG DEALER.
I AM NOT A DRUG DEALER.
I AM NOT A DRUG DEALER.

Okay. Have a nice damn day.

x_berts_bees_x @ 2006-02-24T14:58:00

2006-02-24T21:00:34Z

POST ANONYMOUS

1. one secret.
2. one compliment.
3. one non-compliment.
4. lyrics to a song.
5. how old you are.
6. how long we've been friends if applicable.
7. & a hint to who you are.
8. after you do it for me, put it in your LJ and see who does it for you.

Tomorrows my birthday bitches!

fill that shit out and maybe i won't bust your balls for a birthday present.

x_berts_bees_x @ 2006-01-15T22:48:00

2006-01-16T04:50:05Z

I'm going to india to find myself.

I must be there somewhere.

I lost this guy named Bert somewhere.

it's imperative i find him.

everything is lost.

no more Jeph.

no more Bertandjeph.

Just bert. if i can find him.

it's gonna be hard.

x_berts_bees_x @ 2005-05-30T07:20:00

2005-05-30T12:24:10Z

This is not just a knife.

This is me. this is you.

Us. This is us.

This is life. Blood. Crimson soul.

this is love. Our love. the love of leeches.

You want my blood? This is NOT forever.

This is now. That was then.

This is everything. This is where the buck stops.

This is life. Crimson. Red. Scarlet. Cinnabar. Blood.

This is scars. Tales of life love heartbreak and pain.

This.

This...

This is our story.

Us.

This is not just a knife.

This is everything.

Fuck you bert. Can't you write anything good anymore? Do you remember the boy locked in his room for a month? the boy with just a notebook and a razorblade? Where did he go? Where is he now? Does he still breathe? still think? Was he happy or sad? You don't even know do you? FUCK YOU. This is self hate at it's worst you little bitch. Do you know anything? How the fuck do you deal with yourself everyday? You.. don't even know how you feel.. What. The. Fuck. Is. Wrong. With. You. Oh yeah. You don't even know how you feel. How in HELL could you know what's wrong with you? Tsk tsk. Little boy. You're horrible. You're a fucking wreck. LOOK AT YOU! Go ahead. Look down. Look at the baggy pants. Tha pj shirt. No socks. No shoes. No underwear at all. Is this what you wanted to become? Oh. And does that hair really look that good on you? I don't think so. You. Forget this. Don't ever look in the mirror again. I don't want to look at you.

whore.

The ocean breathes salty, wont you carry it in? In your head, in your mouth, in your soul. The more we move ahead the more we’re stuck in rewind. We’ll I don’t mind. I don’t mind. How the hell could I mind? Well that is that and this is this. You tell me what you want and I’ll tell you what you get. You get away from me. You get away from me. Well that is that and this is this. Will you tell me what you saw and I’ll tell you what you missed, when the ocean met the sky. You wasted life, why wouldn’t you waste the afterlife?

x_berts_bees_x @ 2005-05-19T23:35:00

2005-05-20T04:37:28Z

(( I want to whine. very badly. This is a public service announcement. Riley feels like she's dieing and is in the middle of moving. Again. I might be a few weeks.two. I'll say two. Yeah. I hope. Riley/Bert ))

x_berts_bees_x @ 2005-04-12T15:14:00

2005-04-12T20:15:49Z

Advanced Big 45 Personality Test Results

Gregariousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Sociability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Assertiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Poise	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Leadership	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	86%
Provocativeness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Self-Disclosure	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Talkativeness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	82%
Group Attachment	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Extroversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	73%
Understanding	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Warmth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Morality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	38%
Pleasantness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Empathy	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Cooperation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Sympathy	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Tenderness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Nurturance	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Friendliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Conscientiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Efficiency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Dutifulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	26%
Purposefulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Organization	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Rationality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Perfectionism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Planning	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	22%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	40%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	38%
Happiness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Calmness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Moderation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Toughness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Impulse Control	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	26%
Imperturbability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	38%
Cool-headedness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Tranquility	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Emotional Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	45%
Intellect	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Ingenuity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Reflection	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Competence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Quickness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Introspection	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Creativity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Imagination	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Depth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	82%
Openmindedness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	73%

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Factor		low score	high score
Gregariousness	90%	quiet, reclusive	engaging, socially bold
Sociability	62%	withdrawn, hidden	warm, open, inviting
Assertiveness	66%	timid, gunshy	controlling, aggressive
Poise	78%	uneasy around others	socially comfortable
Leadership	86%	stays in background	prefers to lead
Provocativeness	74%	modest, plays it safe	bold, uninhibited, cocky
Self-Disclosure	62%	private, contained	very open and revealing
Talkativeness	82%	quiet, stealthy, invisible	motor mouth, loud
Group Attachment	62%	loves solitude	prefers to be with others
Understanding	62%	insensitive, schizoid	respectful, sympathetic
Warmth	70%	disinterested in others	supportive, helpful
Morality	38%	break/ignore the rules	play by the rules
Pleasantness	54%	aloof or disagreeable	gets along with others
Empathy	74%	out of tune w/ others	in tune with others
Cooperation	42%	competitive, warlike	agreeable, peaceful
Sympathy	66%	socially inconsiderate	socially conscious
Tenderness	66%	cold hearted, selfish	warm hearted, selfless
Nurturance	74%	self pleasing, me first	people pleasing, me last
Conscientiousness	34%	reckless, unscheduled	careful, planner
Efficiency	46%	unreliable, lazy	finisher, follows through
Dutifulness	26%	leisurely, derelict	strict, rule abiding
Purposefulness	34%	inattentive, undisciplined	prepared, focused
Organization	58%	relaxed, oblivious	detail oriented, anal
Cautiousness	30%	impulsive, spendthrift	restrained, cautious
Rationality	50%	irrational, random	direct, logical
Perfectionism	62%	careless, error prone	detail obsessed
Planning	22%	disorganized, random	scheduled, clean
Stability	38%	easily frustrated	calm, cool, unphased
Happiness	54%	unhappy, dissatisfied	self content, positive
Calmness	46%	touchy, volatile	even tempered, tolerant
Moderation	50%	needs instant gratification	easily delays gratification
Toughness	62%	hypersensitive, moody	thick skinned
Impulse Control	26%	lacks self control	maintains composure
Imperturbability	38%	highly emotional	emotionally contained
Cool-headedness	62%	demanding, controlling	accommodating
Tranquility	34%	emotionally volatile	emotionally neutral
Intellect	78%	instinctive, non-analytical	intellectual, analytical
Ingenuity	74%	lacks new ideas	innovative, novel
Reflection	78%	unreflective, coarse	art and beauty lover
Competence	58%	slow to understand/think	intellectual, brainy
Quickness	66%	intellectually dependent	intellectually independent
Introspection	70%	not self reflective	self searching
Creativity	66%	dull headed	synthesizer, iconoclast
Imagination	90%	practical, realistic	dreamer, unrealistic
Depth	82%	lacks curiosity	mental explorer

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Fuck you! You fucking fuck!

2005-03-20T07:02:07Z

My name is Bert.

I'm fucking psycho.

Talk to me. I'll give you a run for your money...

I can't believe I actually got one of these things.

Oh yeah. Friends only.

If you don't like it.. comment. I'll beat you up first and then add you....